Over the next week, God repeated the same "I will increase the number of your offspring" "Trust in me" theme several times. Then we took off for Florida for a week for the EBV conference. We had to take a plane to get there.
I am not sure I've ever shared this, but I.HATE.FLYING. I hate airplanes. Don't get me wrong, they are terribly convenient, but they make me kinda tweak out. I must have a window on one side (so I can watch myself plummet to the ground?) and my husband on the other in order to not have a fit.
We were flying standby, so I didn't exactly get to choose my seat. The first flight was not so bad, because of a man sitting next to me and chatting, but the flight home was awful. I was in an aisle seat and not next to Allan. There was also no nice man sitting next to me talking me off the edge of the wing. So I had a little fit and closed my eyes tight and felt my blood pressure rising as we hit turbulence. I looked back to Allan who seemed a little frustrated with my over-reaction. I realized he wasn't going to be any help, so I took my bible out of my bag and started back up where I had left off.
Never doubt we serve a living God. Never doubt that though the bible was written long ago, it is living and active because of the Spirit that moves through it. He reached down into that plane and spoke to me as clearly as ever.
2 Timothy 4:5-But you should keep a clear mind in every situation. Don't be afraid...
2 Timothy 4: 17-But the Lord stood with me and gave me strength...And He rescued me from certain death.
18-Yes, and the Lord will deliver me from every evil attack and will bring me safely into his heavenly Kingdom.
Isaiah 54: 2-Enlarge your house, build an addition.
Spread out your home, and spare no expense!
3-For you will soon be bursting at the seams.
Your descendents will occupy other nations
and resettle the ruined cities.
4. FEAR NOT....
Isaiah 54:6-the Lord has called you back from you grief
It goes on, but I'll save all the amazing reading for you to do on your own. Basically, as He opened that up to me that day, He was saying, "Quit being afraid...didn't I promise you you'd see more children in your home? Don't you think I'll deliver you from this plane? EVEN IF it were to crash, I would bring you home to your children and you would raise the others I have set aside for you."
Not that the even if part made me feel very good, but to have God's promise wrapped around you like a blanket, wow!!
So as we were getting off the plane, I scolded Allan for not being sweeter to me and then showed him the passages I read. As we were on our way to the lobby, I decided to check in and see if I had messages, and find out how the kids were. This is the message I had waiting for me:
Just got done reading your blog. . .and now seems to be the right time to tell you. . .I also know--from God--that you will have more children. . .when your last little one died I heard it but didn't think that was the time to tell you.
<3 Oh, how He loves us! <3